Webshop shipping delaying and personal update

Hello!

I appreciate many people ordering the books and prints from by website. While I’m packing and sent some packages, I started to thought the packages are not strong enough for airmail, and I ordered some new packing items and waiting for they arrive. So the ordered I got from last Friday to today will be shipped once the new packing items arrived. I guess it doesn’t take so long but I am sorry for delaying. Thank you for your patience!

Plus, there are the National holidays in Asia on first week of the October, especially China, Korea, Hong Kong and Taiwan. So possibly shipping delay will be happens. Please keep this in mind.

The orders from US customers have been stored away. I hope the shipping will be resumed soon.

Keeping away from internet

Recently I’m not checking Bluesky that used for posting my info and personal things. And also haven’t check the news by other media. Now there are too much shocking, sad, stressful and devastating news and hates. I seems the world getting worse more and more, people are shifting to far-right, there are the atmosphere that like the hates and violence are acceptable, and already those are effecting us as bad way. (It’s not just a guess, it’s actually happening already. I don’t have so much friend but just talk with a few trans/foreign friends in Japan, we could share terrible cases actually happened to us outside of the internet.)

As I said before I’ve been suffering mental issues, and still struggling with them. Recently I feel it getting worse again, and I realized my speech and behavior have been getting something wrong. My brain is totally chaotic, and same time very foggy, I can’t control myself. Sometimes too much talk, easy to get mad, get sad, get changed the mood between high and low like rollercoaster. I can’t control over thinking, impulsive behaviors happen often, can’t settle my sleeping schedules and …drinking too much often (I can’t believe there weren’t any liver and cholesterol problems by blood exam / it was kinda good news tho lol)

The stress level is always high, so I also had to visit to doctor several times by physical issues, but every time fundamental issues aren’t found, and diagnosed like “by the stress.” Especially it was terrible getting periods a few times even I’m getting testosterone and I know I’m keeping enough amount of it by blood exam… (Can you imagine how uncomfortable who trans masc who doesn’t look a woman have to go to gynecology and getting physical exam?)

I really hate to not check the news and what is actually happening in the world, because it makes me kinda ignoring the issues and feeling I am a part of a people who are apathy, unconcerned. But, I realized I can’t survive if I don’t take distance from the hateful informations, and take care myself now.

So… I don’t check the news and SNS for a while. I post on my platforms about my informations by kinda one-way. I also won’t check the timelines, replies and private message. Maybe it make you feel I’m unfriendly, but hope you understand my situation.

From here just kinda my complaining…
Seriously, it’s not only the hates and violences themselves, I’m worried about some kind of “betrayal” “intolerance” by the companies that possibly becoming my clients by what recently happened. I’m afraid losing my work forever if I fight against damn fascists damn rich bitches and criticize them for our rights. I can’t know ‘the details’ why the companies are being intolerance to true meaning of ‘free speech’ but I feel so every time I see the news about such kind of things. I know the rich people who are owning the companies prefer sniffing smell the asshole of the fascist pigs than supporting minorities. But even if they suck, I want the people who is working under these companies/publishers to show their stances, like supporting minorities and they are not an intolerant and not a part of the fucking nazi.

Well… even if what I say, I know nothing will be changed. But if I’m doomed either way do action or do nothing, I choose the way I don’t stop doing action and don’t shut my damn mouth. I understand hiring the creators who don’t show their stances and mostly belongs to majority is easier than hiring a creator who’s always politic, queer, having mental issues and developmental disorders and an Asian living in far east. So I realize I’m standing the edge of the deep cliff always. If there aren’t the way to escape from there, OK I will choose falling the cliff with no change my way.

Anyway, even if something happen to my recent job as comic creator, I will try to find the way I survive… I mean, I have started to plan to survive. Like making my own brand. I truly hope I can keep being comic creators. But honestly losing the hope.

But I have to survive. We have to.